I’m Worth Thinking Of
I was in for such disappointment one morning. Finding out that he was just making fun of me with his texts the previous night made me feel like such a crap. I had my doubts with regard to the sincerity of what he was saying so I guess I was not completely a stupid fool. Still, it hurts. Maybe because I didn’t expect he could do that to me. Maybe because I was pleasantly surprised and truly wanted to believe his words as they are. But even if it were not so, still, what right does he have to stir up my feelings late at night? Even if it was not me, what right does he have playing with a woman’s feelings like that even if he meant it as a joke? It was a bad joke. Seems like it is something he is good at… it feeds his ego probably. Typical doing of a man so they say. Bullshit. If I was a loose woman, my muddy character would have been immensely flattered by what he did. But I am not. How may I know how to take him seriously anymore? Just a sec, let me answer my cellphone…
Wow, that was two male friends of mine hanging around over pansat and probably beer (they were not drunk). It has been some time since I last saw them. As they were talking, I came to their minds and they called to ask how I am! Now, I know that I am worth thinking of afterall and sincerely at that. Thank God I won’t be sleeping tonight feeling like crap anymore : )
